Monsters Inside

Hello!

Then...

I made mistakes again today :)

Last night i dreamed about i turned into a tall black monster, that dream was scaring me and made me waken up from sleep. I was wondering about that dream along day until a friend asked me hang out to a caffe , i accepted the invitation.

Guess what happened to me in that caffe?

The Monsters waken up inside me and took a wheel of my body, when i feel happy i could be the happiest person in this world, then the opposite comes when i get trigered by negative things, i am frowning, i became unstable.

I just dont know what happened to me, last time i locked my self at house for seven days and decided to hang out today. I have strong emphaty that makes me shocked by anything, its like i could absorb every energy of others, even its positive or negative energy.

Some friend asked me "Why are you so active? Can you just sit?", they just didnt know i was insecure that time.

I have no one, the same words "i dont know" why i feel like i couldnt find someone who cares about me and with same head. Its hard for me to find someone.

Yeaaah, i know i have monsters inside me, i should locked them down, and i should fight them.

But unfortunately, im striving for this, to lock these monster.

Sometimes i'd like to quit and nothing ever seems so fit.

Hope i could be win and take back the wheel.